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  Praise for the Writing of Tanith Lee

  “Tanith Lee’s lush fiction is marked by exotic venues, precisely and elegantly invoked, populated with passionate characters whose deep emotions drive them to outstanding feats of folly and bravery, sacrifice and love.” —Paul Di Filippo

  The Secret Books of Paradys

  “Fatalistic explorations of a city so sinister it makes H. P. Lovecraft look suburban … a high-quality mixing of eroticism, horror, and aestheticism.… Superb.” —Chicago Sun-Times

  “Tanith Lee is an elegant, ironic stylist … one of our very best authors. The prose is powerful, as well as stylish, and the characterizations are acute.” —Locus

  “Gorgeous, intoxicating, appalling … Paradys brings to mind M. John Harrison’s Viriconium and Lawrence Durrell’s Alexandra.” —The Washington Post Book World

  “Top-notch demonology and atmosphere … it is Lee’s talent for realizing an exquisite and appalling mingling of lust and horror, sexual pleasure and loathing, yearning and revulsion, that drives the book and its readers from cover to cover. Enthralling.” —Kirkus Reviews, starred review, on The Book of the Beast

  The Lionwolf Trilogy

  “It’s refreshing to find a fantasy world where the more common medieval backdrop is developed into something deeper; where each page brings something new.” —SFX on No Flame But Mine

  “Originality which leaves vivid images in the mind long after … Powerful, poetic.” —Starburst

  No Flame But Mine

  Tanith Lee

  For Mavis Haut,

  who so often sees to the roots of what I write

  while I only swing through the branches

  Translator’s Note

  This text has been translated not only into English, but into the English of recent times. It therefore includes, where appropriate, ‘contemporary’ words such as downside, or even ‘foreign’ words and phrases such as doppelgänger or par excellence. This method is employed in order to correspond with the syntax of the original scrolls, which themselves are written in a style of their own period, and include expressions and phrases from many areas and other tongues.

  As with the main text, names, where they are exactly translatable, are rendered (often) in English, and sometimes both in English and the original vernacular – for example the name/title, Lionwolf (Vashdran in the Rukarian). Occasionally names are given in a combination of exactly equivalent English plus part of the existing name where it is basically untranslatable, as with the Rukarian Phoenix, the Firefex. Note too perhaps the name Jemhara, which is a mix of Rukarian (Jema) and Latin (hara: hare), resorted to since in the original this second part of her name, which refers to her shape-changing, uses an obscure and ancient scholastic tongue of Ruk Kar Is.

  A final point. Among Rukarians to abbreviate or alter the ending of a name may be a sign of affection. But to change or deform the first letter – as with Pth for Zth – is always a grave insult.

  Note on Intervolumens

  The three books of the trilogy make up, in the original format, one long book, composed of scrolls – here represented as Volumes. The Intervolumens are interpolated adventures and developments from other richer sources – since, in the scrolls of Lionwolf, many of these events are detailed sketchily, and in a sort of shorthand.

  The One remains, the many change and pass;

  Heaven’s light forever shines, Earth’s shadows fly;

  Life, like a dome of many-coloured glass,

  Stains the white radiance of Eternity …

  Percy Bysshe Shelley

  Adonais LII

  Tenth Volume

  ICE JEWEL AND HEART OF FIRE

  Always are there enemies. Some at you run with knife, some smile at your side. Some you notice not till round your throat their two hands come.

  Inscription found on many male amulets;

  the warding spell is presumably carried

  by the stated facts: Vormlander

  ONE

  Gold moon sailed green sky. Beneath the two lay the world.

  As she stood at her narrow window, the solid frigid sea to one side, and the wrecked city of Kandexa filling the rest of the view, the magician stared unblinking with her sombre eyes. The evening had a look it must often wear. The limpid and beautiful dusk alone seemed capable of change. The ice-imprisoned earth was stuck.

  Of course there was always the chance of a savage fight. A pall of smoke hung on the city. The settlements of West Villagers and Clever Town had come to blows again.

  Jemhara turned towards the door of her room. She sensed, as now she usually did, a human approach.

  After a moment feet sounded on the attic stair and next the gentle rap of knuckles.

  She did not move. The door opened at a twitch of her will.

  A young man stood gaping. Yet all of them knew she could do such things. The people here had established for themselves she was one of the Magikoy, those mages that had been the most powerful, supposedly, in the world. Technically she was not Magikoy and she had never claimed the title for herself. But then too many of them said black-haired Jemhara was once a queen.

  The young man cleared his throat.

  ‘Someone has come to Paradise, Highness,’ he announced.

  She nodded gravely.

  Inside herself the little involuntary leap of her heart was instantly squashed. Persons did arrive at the barricaded and stupidly named zones inside Kandexa. At first, on being told of any newcomer she had frozen in expectancy. But it was never him.

  The boy went on, ‘The mageia says can you come and see to it?’

  The lesser mageia was a sensible woman.

  Following the boy down from the attic, showing the stair for them in the gathering dark with sorcerously lit glims, Jemhara heard the echo of words in her head.

  A man is on the road to you. A man like a tower of ice with eagle’s eyes.

  Only one surely could be defined in that way: Thryfe, Magikoy mage of the Highest Order.

  A dead god had given her the news in a kind of vision. But he was a god of wickedness and destruction.

  Oh, she had still believed it. For a while. Most do when offered hope. And it sparkled before her like some image in a scrying mirror. Then, just as the dark now fell on the city, dark had fallen over her dream. She had asked herself simply how she could ever have credited a promise so obviously flawed. For though Thryfe was her only love, to him she was a despised and hated thing, causer of his guilt and utter despair.

  The girl was seated cross-legged on the floor. She looked about eighteen or so, but within her face much older. A slender purple scar vividly marred her forehead; her skin otherwise was creamy. Ragged brown hair had been dyed green but the dye had now mostly grown out. A witch?

  From her natural colouring she seemed to be from the Ruk. But the dye indicated the wild sorceresses of Gech in the far north.

  Aglin, the older mageia of Paradise, was tending the fire-basket, lighting a couple of lamps by means of a nod and putting on water to boil.

  Jemhara saw that the girl seated on the floor watched this with mild interest, calm but at odds with everything, as if she had given up either resisting or asking real questions.

  ‘Here I am,’ said Jemhara.

  ‘Here you are, Jema. And here’s this one.’

  Jemhara looked again at the girl. ‘How are you called?’

  ‘Azulamni. But he called me Beebit. He said I’d have to answer to that or I’d be killed. And now I’m used to it.’

  Jemhara raised her brows. She was familiar with strange coercions from her own youth
ful past.

  ‘Why was that?’

  ‘After the reivers came here, those years back.’

  ‘You mean to Kandexa, in the time of Vashdran?’ To speak the name of the dead god who had made war on the Ruk burned Jemhara’s mouth, and left a bitter psychic taste. It was he too who had spoken to her in the vision.

  ‘Kandexa surrendered to the reivers, the only city that did,’ remarked Aglin to herself. ‘Thought it’d save them but the buggers smashed the place anyway. Scum, like all the mixed armies of Vashdran the Lionwolf.’ She stared at the water over the fire. ‘Watched pot boil!’ It boiled at once.

  ‘I was hiding up in the roof,’ said the girl now called Beebit. ‘My father said go up, you’ll be safe, and because I’m limber, I could. But they found him. I heard them murder him. Then I came down, so they caught me.’ She was matter-of-fact. ‘One of them, he was a Kelp, he stank of fish, he threw me down and raped me. The rest of them got bored and went off. There were other nicer things and women. But then the Kelp saw how I was, what I can do. He didn’t hurt me much, he was only small. I’d served bigger.’

  Aglin brought Jemhara wine and hot water with a stick of spice. The mageia murmured, ‘Daddy had put her into the game. A cunning whore at twelve years.’

  ‘So old?’ said Jemhara.

  Hearing this, the girl glanced at them and suddenly she laughed. The mageia and Jemhara were both surprised. Laughter was not what they expected.

  ‘Look,’ said Beebit.

  Then she lay down on her back, not using her arms to help her, and slowly and evenly put up both her legs until her feet rested flat on the floor either side of her head. Then she stood up once more, weight only on the soles of her feet, bringing her head and torso round and under and out in a sort of leisurely backward somersault. Still grinning she sat on the floor again and crossed her legs, this time with a foot on each of her shoulders.

  ‘See, Highness?’ she said to Jemhara.

  ‘Honey bones,’ said the mageia.

  Jemhara nodded. ‘And the Kelp liked that?’

  ‘He loved it. So he hid me and fed me, and he brought me green dye. That sallow Rukar skin, he said, that’ll pass for Gech, if you change your hair. He said he had met a Gech witch once. She was like that. Then I travelled with Vashdran’s army. I soon learned the other languages, Kelp, Vorm, Jafn. I’m quick to learn.’

  ‘The Gech mageias have magic,’ said Jemhara. ‘Were you never asked?’

  ‘I said my magic was how I could do the things with my body I can do.’

  They paused in silence then, each drinking the hot watered wine.

  Outside somewhere in the ruin there was shouting, but far away. Dogs barked but left off.

  Aglin sat in one chair and Jemhara in the other, and they gazed at Beebit sitting on the ground with her feet on her own shoulders.

  ‘So then?’ said the mageia. It seemed she hadn’t heard all yet.

  ‘Don’t you want,’ said Beebit, ‘to know if I saw Vashdran?’

  ‘Did you?’ said the mageia.

  ‘Now and then. Never close. He was very beautiful. He was golden, and his hair was red as sun-up and they said his eyes were blue – but in war they went the red of blood. He could do what I can – I mean he could walk straight up the sides of walls and trees, up the hard ice. He’d ridden into a battle standing on the back of a chariot-lion.’ Her face was dull again and she said all this impassively. ‘But I never liked men, even gods. Only my father. He was always kind.’

  ‘He made you a harlot,’ said Aglin flatly.

  ‘Oh, that. He was a harlot too. Since nine years. It’s a profession. I’m not ashamed and nor was he.’

  ‘And the Kelp who saved your life?’ asked Jemhara.

  Without any expression the girl replied, ‘I swore to myself I’d kill him first chance Fate gave me. But it didn’t find me, that happy day. Never mind it. The Magikoy saw to him and all the rest at Ru Karismi, City of Kings. They unleashed the great magic weapons of power and the White Death came. The whole enemy horde – gone to dust and powder. Even the Lionwolf, I think, for no one saw him since.’

  ‘Someone told you this?’ said Jemhara. Her flesh prickled with silver quills under the skin. ‘Because you had got away from the Kelp and so avoided the White Death, which none present escaped.’

  ‘No, lady,’ said Beebit. A tiny and impertinent smile crinkled her mouth. ‘I was there. I saw it happen. It was like noise without noise and a lightning flash that went on and on. And then – just powder and dust, and me standing in the midst, by the baggage carts where the women were. Only no carts left, no women or beasts. Even the chain he’d put on my ankle and the peg in the ground – not even those. My clothes were all lightninged off me too – but not my hair.’

  Jemhara spoke very softly.

  ‘And the scar on your face?’

  ‘That? A man threw a knife at me when I was fifteen. The dad killed him. That’s all that is.’

  A second moon rose, but only a thin crescent. The third did not rise and the first was already down. On the nights of strongest triple moonrise – two moons at least at or nearly full and the third not less than half – Kandexa bleakly resembled a scorched skull smouldering fires, where people came and went with rapid unease, like lizards darting over stones. But tonight was not so violently lighted. A lot could go on in the dark.

  Beyond the city, the humped old orchards of frozen fruit had been burned down during the war, along with anything else potentially useful to the enemy. Years’ snows had covered these places. Now the approach was a sheet of white. Anything which moved there even on a night of thin moons showed at once.

  It must then be a tall man, tall and lean, casting a lean long shadow.

  Behind him his footsteps were imprinted in the softer snow. They stretched off for a vast distance, hours off, before different terrain hid them. Apparently he had walked a great way, which for a man alone was not so usual. Sometimes one noted a slight discrepancy to the left side of the prints – an intermittent halting in the left leg.

  Kandexa had no gates. That was, she had no external ones. All her fortifications and barriers were inside. They ringed in the rival zones of the city.

  The man who walked passed into the city.

  Most of the thoroughfares now wound between the settlements, for most of the larger roads had been blocked off two or three years before.

  As he moved through a narrow alley then, that once had been part of Kandexa’s Royal Road, he was spied from two storeys above.

  ‘Who’s he?’

  ‘Some fool.’

  ‘His garments are good; look at that cloak.’

  ‘He strides as if proud of himself.’

  ‘Too big for his boots to carry.’

  The low voices sizzled like ice-snakes.

  Certainly the stranger could not have heard them …

  Nor the sudden twang of a dart-bow.

  The dart, of ice-hardened black flint, speared down and caught the stranger between his shoulder blades. The three men rose to their feet on the roof, waiting for the idiot to topple over.

  But he did not.

  ‘You mucked your shot.’

  ‘Never – never! You saw – it hit him square—’

  ‘Well, he’s seen us now – Hey!’ one of them shouted over into the alley. ‘Fancy us, do you? Then we’ll come down and join you.’

  They swarmed along a rope kept ready and landed in the compressed space. The stranger had not moved. He stood there, and the dart lay on the street. It had struck him – yet missed?

  The biggest man, first to reach the ground, slung his knife with all his weight behind it. It too struck the tall man, this time in the heart. Then like the flint it shivered and let go, dropping back to earth with a thunk. Bloodless.

  ‘He’s mage-spelled.’

  Yes, it seemed he must be. There had been the faintest gilded quiver over the air as the blade touched him. Except, sensibly, they had put that down to a trick of
the limited moonlight.

  ‘What do you want?’ he said. The voice was compact, and primed with power.

  They faltered. Only the big one said, ‘Don’t try to lord it over us. No lords here. They died when the scum-horde came.’

  ‘I know.’

  ‘Then know this: whatever you are, we can take you.’

  The stranger turned and walked away from them.

  That was all.

  Each of the three men stood dumbfounded. Then the big one threw the paralysis off. He charged after the tall stranger and, from a few feet behind him, lion-like leapt up on his back.

  It was as if he had jumped on to a disc of cold fire that spun him and whirled him down, and as he met the hard ice of the street it seemed softer and far sweeter than the wide shoulders of the one he had attacked. Through a pair of just-broken teeth the big man mourned, ‘He is a mage.’

  The other two faltered – then ran away.

  The mage, if so he was, walked on. No limp was obvious now. He turned out of the alley that had been part of Royal Road, and moved between crushed buildings. Here and there a stray cat, by now adapted to the outdoor cold, its fur long and abrasive as wire, glared with glacial eyes. They had been beloved, silk-coated pets only three years before. But the walking man knew very well how quickly all things were by now educated to adapt. Five centuries of Winter had seen to it.

  Beyond a kind of tunnel of collapsed masonry he found himself at the gate of one of the several zones of Kandexa. Inside the ill-formed walls, lamps showed in darkness much as the eyes of the cats had done.

  Five men now came out from a house and frowned at him. They wore the mail of Ru Karismi, the deceased capital of the Ruk. And over the gate drooped a stained banner once the crimson and silver of Ru Karismi’s colours.

  ‘This is Wise-Home,’ said one of the men. ‘We don’t welcome aliens.’

  They had been drinking, something never brewed in a still. The walker looked at them, and through the muffle of his hooded garment they glimpsed a pair of eyes.